“No, no way.”
Lilly stood and began pacing. “I don’t like it either; Logan, but I have the proof in more ways than one.”
“Another reason I ended things with your dad was because I found the cameras. Well, I went to Veronica – it was about a few weeks ago, and I asked her what I should do. I told her that someone had video of me changing and that I wanted it back. And, she got this look in her eye,” she whispered, looking up at Logan. “It was such a cold look and she says, ‘You don’t have to lie, Lilly. I know you’re fucking Logan’s dad. I have the tapes.’” Lilly turned away from Logan, going over to the mini bar and getting out a small bottle of vodka.
Logan’s eyes were wide open, hanging on every word. “Go on,” he urged.
“I tried to deny it. But she had dates, I guess the dates from the video. She turned to me and laughing and said, ‘Isn’t this funny, the princess of Neptune is fucking her old boyfriend’s father. I wonder what Logan will do when he finds out that information.’” Lilly looked at Logan as a frown etched onto her face. “I told her that she didn’t have the balls and she laughed and began boasting how whipped you were and that you’d believe anything she told you. I didn’t believe that she had the tapes, so I got a plan to go after them. But there was one thing I needed to know,” she said sadly.
“What?” Logan croaked out.
She looked at him. “I needed to know your feelings for her,” she said in despair.
Understanding crept on Logan’s face. “That’s why you went after me that day. You wanted to see if I was a whipped as she said I was.” Lilly nodded at this. “And when I pushed you away –” he left the rest unanswered, knowing she was finished.
“I knew that I had to get those tapes, but I had a certain time table, and by the time it arrived, Veronica had already cornered me at school, yelling at me to stay away from you and then she told me that I wouldn’t take you away from me, and if I got any closer, she would release the tapes. I prayed that she truly didn’t have them, so I went to your house, asking your mom to let me go into the poolhouse. I told her that I left my suit there. When I looked into the drawer, all my tapes were gone. But there was a few left and I grabbed them.” She walked over to the bed and took out one of the tapes that had been in her gym bag along with a camera and some wires. She hooked the camera up to the TV and put the tape in.
They watched as Veronica looked into the cameras and followed the wires to the bookshelf. She disappeared from sight, until they heard Logan’s voice calling her name. She had something in her hand as she rushed into the direction of the bathroom, the camera in the headboard catching her stuff things that were rectangle in her purse.
They watched as Logan came in view of the cameras, calling her name once again and then walked towards the bathroom, soon disappearing from sight as well. They soon emerged together walking out of the pool house.
Logan closed his eyes. He knew what day that was. That had been the first time Veronica had ever been there. He turned to Lilly voicing his question, “But that was the first time she was there. How did she know where the cameras were?”
Lilly looked back at Logan, taking her eyes from the screen. “She’s obsessed with you, Logan. I mean, she has her name and your name written in hundreds of pages of notebook paper, one line after the other. On and on. She could have easily watched everything.”
“Okay, then how did she get on my property?”
“Um, she could have used the servant’s entrance, or she could have figured away around it. Her dad’s an ex- cop and a private investigator. They probably know how to do all this stuff.” She listened as Logan took a deep breath, which sounded more than a sob. “I’m so sorry, Logan. I know that you care about her, but she…”
“Don’t Lilly—just don’t.” Logan lay back on the bed, his eyes misting. He didn’t understand any of this. His sweet Veronica had done this to him, to his family. If it hadn’t been for her then his father’s affair wouldn’t have become public knowledge; it would have been a secret, just like all the others. He would never have to know that Lilly and his father fucked.
This entire thing was like a fucking nightmare.
Lilly’s voiced pulled him out of his thoughts, “What are you going to do?” she asked softly.
His voice came out resigned, and weak. “I don’t know,” he whispered. “I don’t know.”
Veronica glanced around the quad looking for her boyfriend. She hadn’t talked to him since the morning she left, which left her very unsettled. She pulled out her cell phone taking another look – still nothing from him.
What the hell was going on?
When she glanced back up she saw him, his backpack slung over his right shoulder, walking with Dick and a few of his friends.
Veronica walked forward, going down the steps that led into the middle of the quad. They still had a little time before class started for the early session, and she wanted to talk to him.
The cold December breeze blew her hair back, the little hairs among her head tickling her. She pulled her jacket closer, suddenly chilled.
Veronica came to a stop in front of Logan, taking a look at his friends, glaring at them. Soon they got the idea and they left Logan. Veronica tried to catch his eyes, but he avoided them. She lifted her hand to his cheek and he flinched away from her. “Logan?” she asked wonderingly, shocked that he had flinched at her touch. Why would he flinch? They were in a relationship. He had just made love to her a few days before, and now he was flinching.
She called his name again and his brown eyes looked up at her in sadness and what was that – a little bit of anger. “What’s going on, Logan?”
Logan still said nothing. He swallowed hard and looked away from her, avoiding all contact.
Frustrated, Veronica stepped closer to him, “What the hell is wrong with you? Talk to me, Logan.” She sighed, not noticing that her voice had risen and that they had been attracting a small audience. In a gentler, and softer voice she asked, “Please talk to me. What happened? Everything was fine when I left Saturday.”
He looked up at her and finally said, “Yeah, everything was fine Saturday, or it was until I found out who you really are.”
Veronica took a step back. “What does that mean?” He was quiet. She took a step closer to him, “You can’t say something like that and just not finish.”
Logan took a deep breath and looked her into her eyes. “I know everything, Veronica. I know about the tapes, because Lilly told me everything.”
“Lilly-” her voice cracked.
“Yeah, I told him everything, Veronica,” said a voice from behind her. Veronica turned around quickly, her eyes narrowing at Lilly. She watched as Lilly walked around her and sidled up to Logan’s side. A place that no longer belonged to the curly blonde—it belonged to Veronica.
“Told him what, Lil? How you fucked his father and released the tapes? What does that have to do with anything?”
“Don’t lie, Veronica. It doesn’t suit you,” replied Logan, glancing at her before looking down at Lilly. “Yes, Lilly fucked my dad, but that doesn’t surprise me. It hurts, like nothing I’ve ever felt before, but if it weren’t for you, I would have never known and neither would the rest of the world,” he spat at her. His eyes were a mixture of sadness and anger, with a dash of pain - a pain so deep that she knew it touched his soul.
Veronica’s mouth widened in shock, “I didn’t do anything. Yes, I may have grabbed the tapes, but –” she left unfinished.
“But what, Veronica? None of these lies are going to work. Why would I release the tapes? Why would I do that to my family? Why would I do this to Logan? There is no reason why I would ever want to have them released. People are looking at me like I’m a whore, while you look like a pretty little princess. It’s not going to happen.”
Veronica geared herself up for a fight, “Why the hell would I want to release those tapes?” she shouted, her anger consuming her.
Lilly looked her in the eyes and said, “You were afraid that Logan and I would get back together. It’s not that hard to figure out Veronica. You were scared. Logan and I have known each other a very long time, and we have been together almost as long. Sooner or later he and I would have been back together and you couldn’t have that.”
“I would never do anything to hurt you, Logan,” she whispered desperately turning to him.
He shook his head. “You were the only one with the tapes. I saw it. That first day you came to my house, you grabbed some tapes. But, you missed one thing, you forgot about the cameras that were already rolling. It caught your every movement.” He took a deep breath knowing what he had to do. It would hurt him and slowly kill him inside, but he couldn’t let her get away with this. She had played all of them long enough. He looked down at her, towering over her. “It’s over, Veronica. After everything you’ve done to me and my family… betraying me… its over. I don’t want you calling me, I don’t want anything to do with you.” He glanced at Lilly and she gave him a small smile, before he turned and walked away, ignoring Veronica’s pleading.
Veronica could hear the crowd laughing at her. Her eyes filled with tears. This wasn’t happening. This wasn’t happening. She hadn’t done anything wrong. “Logan,” she called out, tears clogging her voice, her bottom lip trembling. She heard a snicker and looked up at Lilly. “I didn’t do anything,” she whispered.
Lilly cocked her head at Veronica, “Do you really think that even matters? God, Veronica Mars, did you really think that this was some fairytale? Did you think that you would come in and steal everything?” Lilly’s voice was hushed. “Here’s the thing, Veronica. This is my town and everyone in it belongs to me, including Logan.”
“All of this is because of you,” Veronica whispered.
Lilly laughed. “Of course. You’re not anything special. You served a purpose and that’s all there is to it. It was too good that day in class when I found that paper with your name and Logan’s.”
Veronica’s mouth widened in shock.
“I knew, right then, that that was the key. I needed those tapes, and you wanted Logan. It was so easy to make a trade. You did all the work for me, but you forgot one thing. You forgot to grab the tape of you actually grabbing the tapes. It was so easy to back track and get it. So really, this is your entire fault.”
“I didn’t release the tapes,” Veronica squeaked out.
Lilly grinned, “An anonymous source did. But you had the tapes, it was so easy to make copies and then air them after you sent some to the police.”
Tears of sorrow flowed from Veronica’s eyes, and she watched as Lilly turned to walk away obviously bored with their conversation. She couldn’t believe that this was happening. Lilly had used her. Used all of them and now Logan hated her and everything was wrong. She knew she shouldn’t but she called out to Lilly anyway, stopping her with a, “Why Lilly, why would you do all of this?”
Lilly turned and smiled, “Because I’m Lilly Kane, and I can do anything I want.”
The next few weeks were really rough on Veronica. She had spent most of her time crying into Wallace’s shoulder, her insides screaming at her, telling her how stupid she was.
School was rough, too. None of the 09ers talked to her anymore, or were even nice to her. They were cruel: slashing the tires on her car, writing horrible things on her locker. It was unbearable, she thought as she looked at her former friends.
The only thing that got her through the day was seeing Logan. Even though he wasn’t talking to her, or hell – even looking in her direction, she watched him. He was becoming more and more withdrawn: his eyes showing signs of sleepless nights, and thoughts of pain. Her heart ached for him, missed him, missed being in his arms.
She had tried to get him alone a few times, but every time she got the chance someone would rush to him, as per Lilly’s newly instituted rules. It seemed as though he was never alone.
There was hardly any fallout with Lilly and the other 09ers. Most girls envied her although they would call her an obscene name behind her back. Never to her face though, because that just wasn’t done. Lilly Kane ruled the 09ers like an Ice Queen, no one demanding a reason for her demands.
She had heard through the grapevine that the Kane’s were pushing to have Aaron serve time, but it was unlikely. Aaron’s lawyers were having him plead out the charges and he would only get probation and some community service.
Logan and Lilly didn’t get back together as she feared, but they were carefully trying to rebuild their friendship. It would be a long and difficult journey, but as Duncan as referee, they would be fine.
Veronica didn’t tell her father what happened. All she said was that she and Logan broke up. It didn’t stop her from crying into her pillow after dreaming of him inside her, of their night together. Waking up with his name on her lips, panting, sweat clinging to her body, her mouth tasting of his skin. It was slowly driving her crazy.
She never told Wallace that they had made love; nothing good would have come of it. He wouldn’t have understood anyway. She did apologize to him for not believing him and for neglecting him during the last few months for something that hadn’t worth it.
It was during the last week of December when she heard that there was going to be a New Year’s party at Shelley Pomeroy’s. She figured that it would be the best time to try and get Logan to talk to her. He wouldn’t answer her calls, he wouldn’t meet her eyes in public and when he was in close quarters with her he always had someone with him.
Well that was going to stop.
She put on her new white dress that she had bought while they were dating, wanting to wear it on a special occasion, although it never happened. It would be fitting for this night.
Once she was dressed, she picked up her phone dialing Logan once again. It went straight to voice mail and she sighed. She prayed that by the end of tonight she would get to talk to him and even though she knew it was improbable, she hoped that they would get back together.
She pulled up to the Pomeroy mansion, her body filled with tension. She didn’t know why, but she had the feeling that some thing big was going to happen that night. She didn’t know if she was over rationalizing everything or if the moon was playing tricks on her, but she knew this night would change her life.
She parked her car next to a bare spot of cars. She quickly got up, placing her purse on her shoulder before making her way in. She strode through the front door timidly, searching for Logan.
She made her way through the dining hall and kitchen before she saw the one person she didn’t want to see. She saw Lilly doing shots with Luke and a few of the others. Lilly took the shot like the pro she was and turned, with a finger in her mouth sucking a lemon for all that she was worth. Lilly smirked at Veronica, staring her down. She couldn’t believe that she had the balls to show up.
Veronica kept walking along, passing by a group of cheerleaders, giggling annoyingly. She kept on smiling when she saw Meg wave at her. It was nice to know that not all of the 09ers were cruel. She and Meg had become friends during the time she had dated Logan and it was good to know that they still were friends, even if they didn’t talk often.
She passed by Meg rounding the corner, making her way to the living room when she saw it. Saw him. Logan. With another girl, the new girl – Yolanda Hamilton.
He was up against the wall, his body covering hers, her leg raised on his hip, with him grinding hard against her, their mouths working against each other. Veronica bit her lips to stifle a sob and hurried away so she would not have to watch another minute. She made her way back through the dining room, and along her journey, picked up the first cup she came into contact with.
With visions of Logan and Yolanda in her brain, she hurriedly drank the liquid she knew would help dull her pain and soon take it away. She set her cup down at the nearest table and continued her way on.
With not knowing where to go she let the couple that was in front her guide her. She followed them around the house ending outside in the backyard. She made her way to the lawn chair, suddenly very dizzy and tired.
Passing the pool and couples that were in the hot tub, she laid down on the chair curling her legs up to her waist. She sighed Logan’s name and closed her eyes. She would only let them rest for minute, until the dizziness and the world that was suddenly spinning stopped. It would only be just a minute. Just a minute….
Veronica stretched lightly, blinking blurry eyes at the ceiling. She brought a hand to her head, a head that was aching. She turned her head looking at the room she was in. A room she had never been in before. A room that she knew she shouldn’t be in because that wasn’t the place she had laid down before.
A strand of hair flowed on to her face when she glanced at the huge windows that were letting in the warm morning light. She grabbed her hair that was tickling her face and tried to pull it around the ear.
She ran her hands along her head smoothing her hair back when she realized the chaos that was around her. She hurriedly pulled her hand back, shocked to discover a very large piece of hair coming with it. She looked at the piece of hair in her hand and the chaos on her bed and realized that all that chaos was her long blonde hair.
She hurriedly ran more fingers through her hair, more hair falling out along the way. Her breathing got quicker and she stood up making her way to the mirror, more hair falling to the floor.
She looked at herself in the mirror realizing that her hair had been chopped in many different places, not two pieces were the same length. Tears began to stream her face when she realized there was a message on her mirror.
Accompanied by a lipstick print of a full round, succulent mouth, the message read, “I hope you had fun last night, I know I did.”
Shaking, Veronica made her way to the door, opening it slightly and slipping her way out. Passing through the living room she took notice of those who were still asleep, crashed out on the floor, and would probably have one hell of hangover later that day.
She heard someone mumble a name and she looked over the side of couch to see who it was. On the floor, next to the couch lay Logan and Yolanda. He was curled against her, the same way he had been with Veronica weeks before.
Veronica watched as he kissed the nape of her neck, still asleep. She felt her heart break in another piece at the sight, but the shattering blow came when Logan moaned, “Lilly.”
Veronica brought her hand to her mouth and hurriedly made her way outside. When she made it to her car she wasn’t too shocked to see her tires slashed, but was shocked to see the words “Slut” written on her car.
A sob escaped her and knew that she had lost. She had lost everything. She had nothing left. It was then that she knew they had succeeded. They had won. And this would be a loss that she would never forget.No Veronica, there is no such thing as a fairytale.
I know that some things are left unsettled, but those are for another time. I may come back to this little universe, but again I might not. It depends. This fic took a lot out of me. When I first got the challenge I figured a nice 3-5 thousand words fic, but this baby took on a life of its own.
I thank all of you who helped me. It would have never happened without you. And I thank you all for reading.